Feel ugly on my upcoming b-day

How should I start? I've been a picky user eversince, I never won any giveaways (which is fine). My main purpose of using this app is to know how to get rid of this acne/pimples that goes back and forth. I felt that it's useless to buy products cause no matter what I used, nothing helps. I'm still behind my face mask and doesn't have any confidence of showing my face. Tomorrow is my birthday and I felt dejavu,cause when I had my bday before, I have an acne and still now,nothing changes, it became the worst. I felt so ugly and ashame to face people. Others might say "OA, your acne/pimples are so minimal compare to others" which is true but I never invalidate their feelings cause whether we suffers the most or the least, we are still suffering right? Tomorrow should be the best day of my life but seeing myself like this in a mirror I'd rather want to be lonely. I'M SO UGLY!!! DARK SPOTS,WHITEHEADS, PIMPLES/ACNE MADE ME LOWER MY SELF-ESTEEM. I'M TIRED OF FINDING A PRODUCT THAT SUITS MY SKIN AND JUST WANTED TO GO TO A DOCTOR..HAISTTT😟But I don't have money for that, I'll just stop at this...I don't want to think anymore cause no one will help. I'm hopeless now... I'm tired of fooling myself.. just wanna say goodbye to my bday 😐

Nothing works on me!

Yes, you see it right. I hope I could turn back to the young version of me wherein safeguard was my bestfriend. Safeguard is the only one who works on my face before but, when my face got burn, nothing works on me 😔 Although my scars on face already healed, it messed up my skincare routine. I hope I could find the best thing for my cystic and pustules acne 😭

Sensitive,oily and acne prone

Can someone recommend me an excellent acne spot treatment? I'm seeing Barenbliss pimple warrior in TikTok and a lot of user gives great feedback but I'm doubtful if this will work on me😞can u please tell me if I should buy it or not.

Acne makes me ugly!

Yes, from the title itself I felt ugly. Most of the people ask, why are you wearing mask? Cause mask is no longer mandatory. Someone tease me, "Face reveal" , I just smile and said I'm coughing even if I'm not. I'm afraid they might get disappointed when they see my face. Even when picture taking, I'm outcast. It's difficult to heal not just my acne but my emotional and pychological health. I've been here at picky but I still failed to win free products. Every month,my mom scold me why I always buy different skincare eventhough it's not working on me but I still try. I'm at the moment of desperation but I don't have enough money to buy expensive type of skincare. I tried cheap skincare routine but it doesn't work on me that's why I'm hoping I could get it here. I don't know if it's my hormone or the product is not really suitable for me. I wish I'm still 10 yrs. Old kid who doesn't have acne, and doesn't care about beauty. I hope I could bring back the 10 yrs.old me in this generation,a girl who's innocent and doesn't care the beauty standard of society

What is the affordable and best products for sensitive,acne and oily skin?

Hi guys! I would like to ask for an advice. I've been struggling with acne everdince highschool and now that I'm working, my skin condition still the same. I used a lot of product testing which has a tea tree ingredients and sadly, that didn't work for me. I used products 2 months before I test another products. All of the product had me purging for more than a month. As as they say, be patient so I did wait for 2 months before I could try a product and until now same thing happened, no effect. I tried going to dermatologist and they provided me a product which I try for more than 2 months, there's no purging but however, it doesn't do anything to my face. I also used a lot of rejuvenating products which I will never try again cause the purging is too much and it's painful. Now I'm just using aloe vera on my face as moisturizer and attached here is my photo of my 5th day of using it. It's just a naturals brand on Watson. I will still wait if there is an improvement and to let you know, I stopped using rejuvenating a year ago and the reason why it is red as I steam my face. It's too difficult to find a product and heal my skin. I'm traumatized using tea tree products so can you please recommend the best product for sensitive,acne and oily skin without this ingredient? Right now, I develop scopophobia or I fear of taking pictures of my whole self that is why I just capture the parts of my face. All my social media account, I removed my pictures because I have an issue with my self esteem due to what is happening to my face. I hope you could help me find an affordable products that I can used daily and will not make my skin worst and if you could provide me a step by step of when to used the products, it will be greatly appreciated.