My skin 😞

My skin wasn't great too and trust me everyone around me have really perfect smooth skin. Not me though, I had acne skin, dull skin and there was one time I had dry skin all over my lips. I didn't wear sunscreen back then so I easily got sunburnt and had really dark skin. If its body shaming, I did heard I wasn't really pretty and I had no sense in making myself pretty. Make sense since I'm a nerd. It hurts cause they said those with their boyfriends. The worst comment is that one of the boys said I look like 'orang minyak'. Its a ghost name from Malaysia if you wanna google it. I didn't really overcomes this yet, if my friends said I'm pretty I just shrugged them off saying they just said that to make me feel better. I didn't believe if strangers said I'm pretty too. Sometimes I got angry if a boy says I'm pretty although its rare and he was my friend because of the things the past said.

I also got body shaming, everyone literally everyone including my family insulted me for my dark skin tone. I never had any friend just because of my skin color and still I have no one. I'm surviving alone in this cruel world where everyone hate me, bully me, insult me just because of my skin tone . I is not not my mistake if I'm born with dark skin

If I could go back and tell myself not to let people get to me. But teenage years are hard and kids really can be cruel. Firstly I didn’t have great skin and didn’t really know how to deal with acne so when I didn’t wear makeup to try and cover it up it was bad, “pizza skin” was said a few times and even “oil slick”, some names I can’t write in here because it’s dirty and undignified. Then when I did wear makeup it was to dark and a heavier coverage making the blemishes look caked up and horrifying. Also didn’t have anyone to help me to learn about applying makeup and what I should us and not use. By the time I became a sophomore in high school my mom finally took me to the dermatologist and my skin cleared up, I also made some friends who helped me learn about how to applying and what looked good for my skin tone. They were some hard years that I vowed to never let my kids go through.

There's two things I was made fun of when I was young and I hated it. #1 is that I'm flat chested #2 I was very poor. Now that I'm older(old)..... I'm still flat chested and i'm still poor but I just don't care what people think or say anymore , I appreciate what I have and thank the good LORD for it!

I’m sorry that happened to you too. People can be so cruel and it terrifies me that my kids will some day have to go through their own situations.